Live to Learn

What an annoying title - A Big Mess - to be a very first writing on this blog, yet this is what I'm just telling you about.

I feel that my recent life has just turned to be a BiG MesS! I don't know exactly what is the cause, but I found many failures around. I still clearly remember how I failed at the selection process for some programs that I was really into them.....

At the end of the year 2009, I applied for one of most prestigious scholarships at my uni - TOTAL Summer Course 2010! I was fairly happy that I passed the document-screening process and was invited to follow the next selection process, that was focus group discussion (FGD). It was the stupid of me that I couldn't pass on that stage. GOT DUMPED ;( !!!!

Another one.....was that I applied for an internship program at the United Nations Population Fund (UNFPA) the Asia-Pacific region...and I just successfully GOT DUMPED ;( !!!!!

The next one........a few months ago, I applied for Unilever Future Leaders Program 2010 (UNFLP). This program is really tempting to me, since it is not only about going somewhere I like, but also offering a good future career- to work and develop potential with Unilever, one of most prestigious consumer goods-companies across the world. I was really optimistic that I could pass all the stages after I had passed on the interview process.....but the reality told me another story......again, I GOT DUMPED in the next stage of the selection which was not just around the final stage ;(

Feeling deeply sad to be dumped for three times (yeah, you can name the dumpers already ), I didn't give up to find another opportunity where I can develop my potentials. In the middle of my Community Service Study (a.k.a KKN), I got an information that Denso, a Japanese company, conducted a program, so called Denso Youth for Earth Action (DYEA) 2010. The program is about giving an opportunity to the youths who have a good environmental awareness and vision to address the issues of sustainable development. Considering that I joined some environmental activities and were running environmental-related things in my KKN, I gave it try.....(of course, with an expectation not to be dumped anymore)
I completed the application in the middle of hectic-KKN days...that month, on April as I remember. On the middle of May, I got an email from Denso notifying that I passed the first selection process and was invited to follow the final selection process in Jakarta. I was so happy at that time, and put high expectation on the program. I just believed that I could pass the interview process and that I couldn't fail anymore. I believed that the program was just really ME. In addition, I had prepared myself by upgrading my insight on current environmental issues. It was on 7th of June that I followed the interview process and I felt that I could run the interview smoothly...............

But then, today..........before I wrote this very first writing on my very new blog here, I've just got an email from DENSO notifying me that I was not the one for the program...(you can imagine how really sad and depressed I was when I red that email... ;( ) The worst part is the title of the email "**DYEA Unsuccessful Candidate -....." .....so depressing!!!
well, you can read the *Unsuccessful Notification* email as follows:

 Dear　Mr. Khoirul Amin

Thank  you  very  much  for making yourself available to participate in the
interview for the “DENSO YOUTH for EARTH Action: New Earthlings Project.”

We very much appreciate your keen interest in the project. We would like to
congratulate  you  on  your very impressive qualifications, as well as your
talent  and  your  devotion to address sustainability challenges.  However,
after  careful consideration by the Interview Panel and on the basis of the
criteria  adopted  for the interview, candidates whose profile more closely
suited the requirements of the training have been selected.

We  thank  you again for your interest in the DYEA Project. We wish you the
best  in all your endeavors and look forward to hearing of your initiatives
and success in the future.

Sincerely,

DENSO YOUTH for EARTH Action Office
c/o Japan Environmental Education Forum （JEEF）



Having red this email, I was totally depressed....told this story to some of my friends. A friend of mine told me to delete this email and forget  about it then move on (just like the way when you want to forget someone you love??)...

This is exactly that God doesn't give you the best, because this is the way He reminds you about something which you might forget